My sweet little monkey,
You’ve been waiting months for today. As you lay here on my lap sleeping, I can’t help but think about how far we’ve come. And while time is flying by, and there are days where I can’t wait for you to have more independence and be more self sufficient, it’s days like today that I wish I could just pause time and really soak in all that you are in this moment.
You see, just as you are learning, I am too. To put it in your words: This is the first time I’ve been a kid, mama. Sweet girl, this is the first time I’ve been a mama, too. We both make mistakes, but we’re in this together, you and I. Figuring it out a moment at a time. No matter what, there are a few things I want you to never forget, even at four years old.
I love you from the bottom of my heart.
I remember hearing your heart beat for the first time, and feeling you move and kick while still in my belly. From those first moments, until eternity, you will always be my baby. Nothing you have done, or will do, can ever keep me from loving you from the bottom of my heart.
You are beautiful.
Inside and out, you are beautiful. While I love playing dress up with you, watching you walk around in my heels with your nails painted in ‘all the colors’, always remember your beauty is so much more than that. You have a heart full of compassion and thoughtfulness towards others. Your beautiful blue eyes and contagious smile have a way of lighting up a room. And, that giggle melts mama’s heart every time.
You make me proud.
You are a wonderful helper. Sure, the dishes take twice as long, and the laundry will get folded more than once. But the memories will last a lifetime. Your willingness to pitch in and help makes my heart burst with pride. You are smart and you work hard, not giving in too easily when the going gets tough-even with a jumbo jigsaw puzzle. The excitement that radiates out of you when you have finished a project or your art is hanging on the fridge is the same excitement I experience as your mama with every little accomplishment you achieve.
Don’t ever settle.
If you want something, go for it. You are capable of anything and everything all at once. Dream big, little one. Never let anyone tell you you aren’t good enough, smart enough, pretty enough. You were created on purpose for a purpose. Use the gifts you have been given to change the world. Kindness can break barriers, sweet girl.
You will always be my baby.
No matter how old you are, you will always have a home here. Grow into the beautiful, strong, independent person that you are, but don’t forget that if you ever need it, there will always be a place for you to call home.